THE BIG 2-0

ON OCTOBER 12 I TURNED TWENTY. AND I WAS SOME WHAT DREDING GETTING OLD. IVE BEEN TWENTY FOR ABOUT TWO WEEKS & ITS BEEN GREAT. CALL ME CRAZY. BUT WHEN I WAS YOUNGER I THOUGHT I KNEW WHO I WAS & WANTED TO BE BUT I DIDNT & I WUD MAKE DUMB DESICIONS & GO DOWN THE WRONG PATHS. NOW BEING 20 I ACTUALLY KNOW WHO I WANT TO BE & WHAT I WANT TO DO IN MY LIFE. SLOWLY BUT SURELY IM LEARNING ALOT ABOUT LIFE. IM NOT GOING TO SIT HERE & THROW OUT THE WORD "GROWN" & IM GROWN THIS & IM GROWN THAT, BECAUSE WHEN IT COMES TO A FEW SITUATIONS I HAVE ALOT OF GROWING UP OF GROWING UP TO DO. AS MY MIND & BODY CHANGES INTO A "REAL WOMAN", I LOVE MYSELF EVEN MORE. I LOVE & EMBRACE EVERY FLAW ON MY BODY MORE THAN EVER. I REALIZED HOW CAN I LOVE YOU IF I CANT EVEN LOVE MYSELF?..IF MOMMYS NOT HAPPY NOBODYS HAPPPY. & THAT IS SO TRUE. NOW WHAT I WANT I KNOW HOW IM GOING TO GET IT. & I THANK GOD I FINALLY FINALLY FINALLY GOT MY PRIORITIES RIGHT. I WAS A MESS. I KNOW WHATS IMPORTANT & WHAT REALLY MATTERS. BUT THIS IS JUST THE FIRST CHAPTER.. I STILL HAVE ALOT OF LEARNING TO DO. && THANKS TO SOME ONE SPECIAL (WHO IVE RECENTLY MET)..WHOSE HELPING MY GO DOWN THE RIGHT PATH. HE'S OPENED MY EYES BEYOND BELIEF. I DONT KNOW WHERE MY STORY END BUT I DO KNOW WHERE IT BEGINS. ITS UP TO ME TO CHOOSE RATHER I WIN OR LOSE && I CHOOOSE TO WIN. FROM NOW ON IM HOLIND MY HEAD UP HIGH & WAITING FOR THE BIG 3-0 TO HIT ME. ;INCONCLUSION; LIFE IS GO0D..SO FAR. THANK YOU, GOD =]






ITS ALL MENTAL..LOVE YOURSELF THAN THEY CAN LOVE YOU.